The Bucket List ramble

I wrote out a bucket list a while ago, it's a list of things I want to do in my lifetime.  So, without further ado here it is in all it's crazy mixed up glory.

Swim in the world’s largest pool

Learn Spanish

Learn Sign Language

Kiss on the top of the Eifel Tower

Hike down the Grand Canyon

Shake hands with the president

Party on Bourbon Street for Mardi gras

See the ball drop in Times Square

Swim in the Pacific Ocean

Visit Hawaii

Travel to 6 of the 7 continents

Experience Weightlessness

Learn to Scuba Dive

See The Great Barrier Reef

See Aurora Borealis

See the Taj Mahal

Go to the Top of the Statue of Liberty

Get Published

 Create a home with an inviting, joyous, comfortable, loving atmosphere

Go Whale Watching

See Elephants in the Wild

Care for a Bonsai tree

Go to the Summer Olympics

Discover and Get my dream Job

The self-comforting ramble

As adults we all have to develop the skill of self comfort to a certain degree. When the anxiety gets bigger than the solutions to anxiety sometimes all you have left is yourself and your ability to make it bearable,to make it something that doesn't destroy you inside. When life rips you at the seams you have to be able to stitch them back together or at least a way to deal with the small tears that the world dishes out. I don’t know how good I am at comforting myself in healthy ways. I try not to drink it away, that rarely does anything other than make me feel way worse the next morning with the same fucking problems I had today. I read sometimes just not the news of course, that just makes me way more anxious about stuff I have little to no control over. Taking a shower, going for a walk with the dog, going for a drive, listening to someone funny or insightful, listening to music,these things all kind of work. But more often than not I drink coffee, look at the Internet, and do nothing whatsoever to ease my anxiety/stress/problems.

Or I write things like this,where the aim isn't exactly clear and I ramble it out on paper rather than just rambling in my head.